To be anything else but me

RJ Muna

Today

I gave up

On healing my trauma 

I gave up 

On practicing the skills 

To become whole 

Today I gave up

On evolving 

Into that ever elusive 

Better version of myself 

Today I submitted 

To the wound of love 

I stopped pointing at it 

Looking at it 

Soothing it

Tweaking it 

Fixing it

Finessing it

Hiding it

Polishing it 

I stopped this game of separation

I crawled inside the wound 

And spread it open 

I decided to wear it like a gown 

I accepted my total and utter 

Failure 

To be anything else

But me

~ Maya Luna