Sun conjunct Chiron – Feed the Hungry Horses

Sun conjunct Chiron represents 

the instinct of the human spirit to manifest itself 

and leave something immaterial behind. 

Our spirit seeking manifestation 

represents our “gift to the world”.

The Sun is our individuality, what makes us unique, our divine mission in this lifetime.

Chiron orbits between Saturn and Uranus, and is the link between the world as we know it (Saturn) and the mysteries and infinite possibilities of the heavens (Uranus).

Chiron is the archetype of the Wounded Healer because this process of moving from one realm (Saturn) to another (Uranus) requires a certain vulnerability and exposure. 

When you get out of your comfort zone (Saturn) something has to break.

Chiron’s orbit is very elliptical. Chiron can spend as little as one year and a half in some signs (Libra) and as long as 8 years in others (Aries). Chiron is a non-conformist and Chiron in your chart shows where you are a non-conformist, too (even if this lack of conformism makes you feel odd at times).

Sun conjunct Chiron is the compelling drive 

to push beyond your existing boundaries 

to find your true zone of genius.

The process of 

learning about your true self, 

the process of 

becoming who you are meant to be, 

cannot be an easy one. 

Hence the wound.

Let’s take the example of pearls. 

Do you know how they are made? 

A parasite tries to work its way into the oyster. 

As a defense mechanism, a fluid is used to stop the intruder. Layer upon layer of coating is deposited, until a lustrous pearl is formed.

The process takes years. 

For years and years, the mussel has to fight an endangering force. 

And after years of struggling, something amazingly beautiful emerges.

So, many times we fail to see that it is our wound, our “handicap”, 

that is the source of our greatest gift.

The path to self-mastery always begins with embracing the wound. 

You cannot become a master if you don’t get in touch with the pain.

Chiron – the Link Between Heaven and Hell, 

the Conscious and the Unconscious

Ultimately, Chiron’s purpose is to restore wholeness. 

Sun conjunct Chiron will re-actualize all the Chironic themes in your life, asking you to (re)connect with the inner shaman.

The shaman’s role is to travel to hell, to heaven, and then back to earth.

In the same way, in his orbit, Chiron is the connecting link between the conscious archetypes represented by the planets visible to the naked eye (all planets up to Saturn), and the unconscious aspects represented by Uranus, Neptune and Pluto.

Chiron orbits between Saturn and Uranus and brings together these two worlds, connecting us with the whole universe.

Chiron And Your Greatest Gift

“Once upon a time there was a prince who wanted to stay forever young. Because no one in the court could help him figure out how, he made a decision to wander through the whole world to find that secret land where life is eternal.

The prince started to prepare for the journey. He went to his father’s stable to choose one fearless horse for his initiatic journey. For days and nights, he tried to find the right horse without success. No horse seemed to be strong enough for such a demanding endeavor.

Finally, when the prince loses all hope, he sees a thin, sick-looking, hungry horse, covered with sores. When he comes closer, the horse starts talking:

“If you want to fulfill your wish, you must ask your father for the sword, lance, bow, arrows, and garments he used to wear when he was young; AND you must take care of me and feed me with your own hands for six weeks and give me oats boiled in milk.”

So, feeding the hungry horse, wearing the father’s clothes and the prince’s desire to reach to “the other side” are the successful resources that bring eternal life.

The father’s clothes represent our genetic upbringing. 

In astrology, Chiron rules our genetic upbringing and DNA. 

We can only fulfill our mission when we build on our genetic heritage.

Sun Conjunct Chiron – Feed the Hungry Horse

What about the hungry horse? 

The horse represents the wound you choose to heal. The ‘handicap’ you choose to embrace. The undesirable side of yourself which if acknowledged, transforms into your greatest gift.

The horse represents those resources you choose to cultivate, even when there is no indication that you will ever succeed.

The man who unleashes the horse’s greatness and goes on an initiatic journey is a beautiful expression of Sun conjunct Chiron.

The horse is the wound (Chiron). 

The prince is the Sun, the spirit who unleashes the wound.

Sun conjunct Chiron 

represents the alchemical process of transforming the wound into a gift.

The hungry horse may get overlooked, or even despised, but he is in your stable for a reason. 

He has survived time and hardship because he has something to offer, and he can offer something no one else can, IF you take care of him.

The horse is a symbol for what is immortal, 

for what it cannot be destroyed, 

is what you leave behind for eternity, 

your contribution to the world, 

your legacy.

The hungry horse is that skill, that gift that only you have. It is your duty (Sun) to bring this gift (Chiron) to the highest possible form of manifestation.

Like any great piece of art, your skills and attributes will outlive you, to feed many more generations to come.

Who Wants to Live Forever?

“After a long trip, the prince finds what he is looking for, and reaches the land of eternal youth. Over there he marries a beautiful princess and lives a life of bliss.

He does not know how much time has passed, as he stays forever young. But one day he remembers his parents and the house where he grew up, and the longing for his family, for his roots, overwhelms him.

He decides to go back to see his parents and the people he grew up with one more time. On his way back home, he notices that everything has changed.

The forests have turned into cities and he could not recognize anything anymore. When he finally reaches the place where he grew up, he notices with sorrow that everything is now a ruin, and everyone in the court has been dead for a long time.

And then the horse tells him:

“I brought you here master, but now I will go back from where I came from”. 

The man decides to stay there and lets nature take its course. Mortality finally catches up with him and he dies”

No human being is immortal, and sooner or later we will all turn to dust, but our gifts to the world (the horse) will always stay.

Our duty in this lifetime is to take notice of the hungry horses, to feed them and unleash their greatness.

Sun conjunct Chiron will ask you to pay attention to the wounded, hungry horses.

They might be hard to notice somewhere in the corner of your stable full of beautiful and healthy horses.

Take care of them and feed them with your “own hand” because it is only through them that you have the chance of eternal life.

On April 9th, 2021 Mercury is conjunct Chiron at 9° Aries.

Chiron is not ‘just’ a Wounded being trying to figure things out.

If we go back to the Greek myth, we learn that Chiron was a wise centaur that HAS figured things out, becoming the greatest teacher and healer of his time.

Unlike other Centaurus, who were untamed and troublemakers, Chiron was wise and level-headed.

Chiron has reconciled his animal nature with his divine nature, taking the best of these two worlds, and becoming a holistic teacher and healer.

How did that happen? What made Chiron different?

Chiron was born half-man, half-horse. Disgusted by his appearance, his mother abandons him at birth. This was Chiron’s primal wound – the wound of rejection.

Thankfully, Apollo (the Greek counterpart of the Sun) adopts Chiron and teaches him ‘Solar’ skills, such as prophecy and poetry.

This, combined with Chiron’s half-horse a.k.a animal and instinctual nature, gave Chiron a unique advantage, and helped him become a revered and respected teacher.

He understood both the workings of nature and the workings of the divine, and became a Whole-istic healer.

IMPORTANT: If Chiron was not abandoned at birth, he couldn’t have been adopted by Apollo, and he wouldn’t have had the chance to bridge the gap from nature to spirit. This initial abandonment, this initial wound, was precisely what made Chiron so special.

Our Chiron wound is the “initial condition” – what we need to not only accept, but also integrate, and use as a catalyst for growth.

Chironic healing is not just the process of finding relief from pain – it is the process of reconciling what is otherwise incompatible or unacceptable within ourselves.

When we bridge these two otherwise conflicting worlds, we ‘heal’, and discover our unique gift.

The Chiron wound is that quality you have that is initially seen as “unacceptable” because it is odd, non-ordinary or goes against the social norms. 

• How can a horse also be a man? How can a man also be a horse? 
• How can a black person have light skin? 
• How can a boy behave like a girl?

But it is precisely this reconciliation of these opposing natures that not only ‘heals’ our wound, but also becomes our unique advantage, our ‘value proposition’, our greatest gift.

Mercury Conjunct Chiron – Becoming Aware Of What Hurts

With Mercury, it’s 

words, thoughts, and memories 

that will trigger our old wounds and hurts.

When Mercury is conjunct Chiron, we often recall some hurtful things someone has said to us. 

Parents or siblings that bullied us, teachers that undermined our self-confidence, colleagues or peers that made us feel odd or inadequate.

Mercury helps us “see” and understand what is otherwise difficult to grasp. 

When Mercury is conjunct Chiron, we can finally acknowledge our primal Chiron wound of inadequacy.

Let’s say you stuttered as a child, and your colleagues bullied you.

What do we do when these hurtful memories resurface? 

Most of the time, we take one of the following two approaches:

1) the most ineffective approach: the memory is so hurtful, that you reject it, and choose not to process it. You numb it down, either by thinking of something else, or by consuming substances. Even yoga and meditation, otherwise excellent practices, can do more harm than good when used to numb down our wounds.

2) less ineffective, but with no true growth potential: you process the emotion, but try to convince yourself that there is nothing wrong: “My voice is beautiful”. Or “It doesn’t matter if I stutter, I also have many other qualities, nobody’s perfect”. Or “Bullying says everything about the bully, not about me. I am so over it”.

However, there is another way to deal with the wound: 

you not only acknowledge these past hurts, 

but also seek the treasure behind them.

If it still bothers you, chances are there is something in there that requires your attention.

If it’s still there, it means it has already influenced your life in a profound way.

In your attempts to overcome the ‘handicap’, you have found alternative ways of dealing with it, and developed some skills you would not have otherwise developed.

Perhaps your awareness of your stuttering made you pay extra attention to what you say, and as a result, your communication is now more clear and articulate.

Research has shown that people who stutter are more aware of the mistakes they make (not only in speech), and are ALSO more eager to correct their mistakes. This makes them perfectionists, which is a great skill especially in professions that require error-free operations, e.g. medicine or engineering.

Sometimes the link between the wound and the gift is quite obvious: 

the child who stutters eventually becomes a singer or a communication expert.

Other times the link is less obvious: 

the child who stutters later becomes a great aviation engineer, thanks to their discipline and attention to detail.

The gift inside the wound may not be very obvious at first, but a Mercury-Chiron transit is one of the best opportunities to become aware of the relationship between the wound and the gift.

When we have a Chiron transit, 

healing the wound doesn’t only mean 

finding relief from pain – it means 

digging into the wound until we find 

the deeper meaning behind it.

If there is something about yourself that is still bothering you, chances are there is a gift there to be unveiled. A potential that is yet to materialize. 

That wound is the KEY to something much greater. 

That wound will continue to bug you until you recognize the gift behind it.

Mercury rules over our communication – not only our communication with other people, but also with ourselves.

That voice inside your head (which we call thoughts), is nothing else but Mercury having a conversation with you. It is Mercury trying to tell you something, trying to get your attention on something that needs to be understood at a deeper level.

Mercury brings clarity. 

With Mercury conjunct Chiron, it is easier to articulate and acknowledge the wound, and most importantly, to become aware of the gift inside the wound.

Astro Butterfly